500 Days of Summer

Prelude: Well it started from (me) having a crush with Joseph Gordon-Levitt that I ended up watching 500 days with summer because everyone is recommending meto watch it if I want to see JGL so bad. So, with the help of a good friend (who downloaded it), I ended up watching the movie.

Well ofcourse the movie started with someone narrating and these flashes of videos of young Tom and young Summer, and da da da da da…you get the idea if you have seen the movie…just scan it out of your head…=)

My point is other than JGL is super cute and I just want to pinched him while bearing that very very notable smile…well I was having some reflections while watching the movie.

First: Tom and Summer is like the life size representation of myself. Summer as the blank, interesting, insensitive kinda girl which is me, and Tom is the i don’t know what to do kind of guy which is also me. It’s not that  Tom is the male version of me and Summer is the other way around. It’s like as if they are portraying a drama in which I can see how I will exactly act . 

More explanation…Summer is like the side of me that’s like… yeah you have seen Summer, that’s just like me, go with the flow, blank, intriguing, smile, laugh, doing unexpected things and all,< yeah I’m like that >and maybe I’m like her that I think, I don’t want someone to brand me as something as theirs.

Tom, is also like me, the don’t know what to do kinda guy, . The one that it seems like things are out of your league kinda type. The one that needs advice, the one that just stare, the one that cherish every moment when it comes, smiles in unexpected gestures, appreciate in small things that for some are big deals to be made. Tom is like me, and I think “Tom” will work for me. . . .

One thing also about Summer is that, she have walls…walls that can only break down by someone who she trust. Someone that she feel comfortable with and that opportunity is rarely given.

I enjoyed the movie, not because it was JGL and Zoe Deschanel, but because it was full of reality. It was not made by fictitious tailored love stories. It was full of sweetness, love, tragedies and sadness. The ups and downs of relationship and the following of life. 

I love how Tom, moved on after the pain when he saw the engagement ring on Summer’s  finger. He tarry, he tossed and turned, got lazy and then boom one day he woke up, he’s still living and got to live with life. He pursued Architecture ….he started anew, read books and started one by one applying for his chosen field…and maybe after a hard work, showered and looking sharp. Though you can see from his face that’s “What’s all these got to do when I don’t have Summer? I miss Summer.” Then one day on his favourite spot where he could view the entire city with all its majestic buildings a familiar voice called, “Hey Tom”.

It was Summer. There she was, sitting next to him, the girl he have longed for, and greeting  her “You’re married…” faking a good smile.

 Summer only looks at him with no qualm or anything and only answered what Tom cannot understand why she don’t want to be somebody’s girlfriend but now she’s somebody’s  wife. Summer just said “It’s just happen…I just woke up one day and I knew..”

“Knew what?”

“What I was never sure of with you.”

At that moment I just feel the pain Tom felt…really I do. It was true pain for Tom, the woman he have loved, he spent with sleepless night thinking over and over again about their pass and memories was there in front of him saying she wasn’t sure if she have loved him.

Summer laid her hand on Tom’s hand and baid goodbye.

Tom was left there sitting on the bench…and it was just surreal, a broken hearted man watching the city streets and buildings afar.

Ending is, even though Tom was left with a shattered belief on fate, destiny and childhood fairy tales… I still do believe it was meant for him to be scheduled on that interview, waiting there talking with his competiton and realized yes maybe he must have not been looking…and sure is 500 days of Summer is over but day 1 with Autum has already started and they are having coffee later.

SANA MA-USO ^^

Ano ba yung uso? Yung mga nakikita sa tv at ginagaya ng mga tao sa kanilang pananamit, pag-galaw, pagsasalita at mga hilig? Mga bagong dance craze o bagong tugtugin? Mga unkabogable na mga jokes o teach me how to dougie? Kpop, jpop, glee, at ang jejemon? Oo nga naman, nakaka-tuwa talagang makasabay sa uso. Feeling mo talaga super in ka na sa mundo! As in in na in to the highest most level kasi nakaksabay ka sa mga kaibigan mo, katrabaho mo, at ka-netizens mo! Masaya diba?

Ako, meron sana akong gustong ma-uso, kasi para Siyang rainbow, binigyan niya ng kulay ang mundo ko.

Kapag kasama ko Siya parang parating umaga! LumiLiwanag kasi mundo ko. ^^

Kasi noong wala Siya, ang buhay ko parang lapis na hindi pa natatasahan: pointless.

Noong wala sya, ang life parang seesaw, laging down.

Kaya kung magtatayo ako ng tindahan, mura lahat ng bilihin ko
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…Kasi kay LORD lang ako MAGMAMAHAL! Naks!
Kapag si Lord ang nasa puso mo.
“SAKTO!” na ang buhay mo.

“Everyday you’re ok.”

kasi His “Moving you forward”.

Ang Sarap ng buhay kasi araw-araw “Ang sarap ng feeling mo.” ^^

He “fuels success.” That’s why He can “Turn dreams into reality “, if you just pray and ask it from him.

Kay Lord laging “Wala kang talo!” kasi syempre “Always tama and timpla.”

Kaya with Lord “Life’s Good” because you know “You’re in GOOD HANDS”

Tatak mo sa kokote mo ! That with God life is COMPLETE.

Kaya pinapangarap ko na sisikat ng sobra-sobra si Lord! Hindi lang yung sikat lang siya sa loob ng simbahan, yung talagang let the LIGHT shine talaga, na hanggang sa kasuok-suokan ng Pilipinas at sa buong mundo!

Sana bukas ang mag Top 1 na sa Myx Hit Chart ay yung mga Christian Songs! Hindi lang yan, ang nagpla-platinum na album ay yung mga Praises and Worship to the Lord! Sa kasikatan ay pati Billboard na conquer na din!

Ang favorite na na gawin ng mga kabataan ay Farmville! Harvesting souls and winning souls for the Lord!

Ang mga dinudumog na na mga concerts ay yung sa mga Hill Songs at mga iba’t-ibang bagong nabuong mga banda dahil sa super inspired na sila kay Lord!

All the people will know His name and they will praise Him more and more everyday kasi si Lord sobra pa yan sa telephone, cellphone, wifi, at bluetooth kung maka-connect! Open ang linya nya 24 hours a day, whole year! Tumawag ka lang sa kanya at hidi Siya magsasawang pakinggan ka. Bumalik ka lang sa kanya at humingi ng tawad at bigla Siyang tatakbo patungo sa’yo dahil ‘yan lang ang hinihintay niya mula sa’yo. Mapagmahal ang Diyos at mapagpatawad. Ikaw lang ang hinihintay niyang kumatok sa pintuan at bumalik sa Kanya. Dahil IKAW ay ang Kanyang minamahal na anak.

Kaya let’s sing!

You and me, sitting on a tree
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P-R-A-Y-I-N-G!

Nag-pray ako sana lahat tayo scientist, para LAB natin si Lord!

Kaya ngayon ang puso ko parang apoy, kasi alab alab. alab you LORD! (^-,^)

SAME SIDE, SIDE-BY-SIDE.

If my life would be playing a tone at this moment it would resonate a sad note. My life is confused.

I will disappoint again a person, but this step I know, I have seek God's advice and guidance. That's why I'm on firm ground.

It doesn't mean I have love God lesser, it doesn't mean I have hardened my heart to the Lord.

My loyalty is still with the LORD. My faith is in the LORD and my commitment is between me and the LORD and that still holds true.

I maybe making this turn but it's not a u-turn. I'm just on the next lane same side as you with same direction. We are on the same side, side by side.

We are still one with the LORD, because we are His children.

God bless us...now and always. AMEN

SCRaTCH PaPeR

It's funny how I want to throw my life away a couple of weeks ago...just like a scratch paper.

I was just being a brat that day, just saying I don't want that, I want this!...frustrated, I typed into the keyboard my tantrum, my petitions, my wants! I complained before my life. When in fact my life is in the need of complaining about me.

I have realized that when you give time to things, give time to yourself, to your surroundings and to people, eventually you will come to a point of acceptance. Adaptation.

Yes, you don't always get what you want, but that doesn't mean you will not get it also. You just can't have it instantly sometimes. It's not always serve on a silver platter...mind you, and mind me..haha. The key is perseverance (and sometimes taming your inner selfishness).

Things that you want are sometimes too valuable that circumstances won't just allow it to be given away for free. No, it must be paid, a high price. It will cost you time.

I was being stupid being angry to those people warning me, don't do that, don't do this....they're not acting to boss you around but because they care for your credibility and integrity loss in some stupid things that I posts. Giving it time, I've realize I'm the one at fault. Thank you.

If my life is like a paper, probably it may have a couple of crumples spread to the whole paper, some little torn around the corner, blots and stains but even though it may not look too clean, and look frayed, I would still try to smoothed the crumples that I made, erase the blots, and try to clean the stains...if within my effort they will still leave a mark, well I guess that's how I have live my life....better be worn than stay clean, prim and blank.

TrUE cOLOrS

- red - orange - yellow - green - blue - indigo - violet -


Now I will let you see my true colors shining through....the darkness inside of me...

EXTROVERT - Most people believe that an extrovert is a person who is friendly and outgoing. While that may be true, that is not the true meaning of extroversion. Basically, an extrovert is a person who is energized by being around other people. This is the opposite of an introvert who is energized by being alone. (by about.com, click EXTROVERT for a more detailed definition)

Being extrovert seems to be my cure and my sickness, it's a sickness in the sense that I need people, people for me are like my batteries, if i don't see them often i get weak...i need a constant conversation to sustain my energy. talk, chat, communication i need those to survive....During college it's abundant, after college it's dwindling. Now I need recharge.

The downside about this is that, if it continues to be like this, i can end up jobless...because being in a job that has so much dense atmosphere and seriousness can suffocate me. It's like poison.

..but being extrovert...i like it. 'coz i really enjoy being with the people i like.

PROCRASTINATOR -to put off doing something, especially out of habitual carelessness or laziness. If you want to know more ten more thing about procratinators click on this link Procrastination: 10 things to know. I tell you it's really accurate for me except for number 5 maybe, but for the rest...i can say "are they describing me?" haha

This is really another sickness...the definition of the word can define for it self that this really is a major major society problem. For me, it seems I'm really not used to finishing things quickly, it must have a definite time to finish, and it must not be quick... and within that "definite time" i tire..so i end up doing things half done. And there's something about finishing a project that's so uncanny, it's just feels like, a rush, an end. i don't know, weird.

CONCEITED -Holding or characterized by an unduly high opinion of oneself; vain. Having an excessively favorable opinion of one's abilities. haha I've gotta laugh, this is really true. haha
I can always caught myself in this situation, feeling valuable, important, giving so much pride to what I've done, thinking I'm one of a kind...how conceited can you get! haha

I do believe that there's a thin line between confidence and arrogance, and I bet mine is thinner...haha. I can only see one cure, humility. If a conceited person finds his match in a humble person, conceited people always lose 'coz humble people has nothing more to lose.

GOOD FOR NOTHING - my too perfect ideas. The thoughts that I can change the world, do better things, help the poor , the needy. "I like to tutor for free for the orphans" "Serve some relief goods to the evacuees". It should be like this, it should be like that, we should do this, and do that. My lines...and my lines suck.

Why it suck? because i don't do them, i always be at the planning stage, the starting stage, the directors stage. Always blurting out ideals, ideals that never brought in action. That's why it's good for nothing.

FLUKE - in the san diego, ca 92114 area a fluke can be the action of saying you are going to do somthing, or something you call a person a who says they are going to do something, and they make you think they really are and then they up and change their mind about doing it and dont do it.

Yeah, when i get to happy i end up doing this. promises promises. What a fluke!

2 things to remember: don't speak when your angry and don't promise when your happy.

LOUD - oh yes without a doubt I'm the loudest one of the group. If being loud is a crime then I'm guilty. wari-na

.....and lasty....

a GENIUS - haha well you can say this is a joke but it's not...sorry to disappoint youc'coz actually I believe I am you can say that I'm lying but I'm not, 'coz you've never have a wind up trip to my brain. Having no proof that I'm not a genius, then I can freely claim that I am!

though I'm self denying it really...

...and by this I rest my case...

BORED..- O -

bored is Boredom...do I have yo exlplain any further???

can it get duller than this... I know I've chosen to wait and postpone my plans until next year, but it really is different if your pursuing your dream...life gets dull because you think its boring because it's not interesting and monotonous..unlike living your dream, everyday must be a realization of what was once imagined and on the process of coming true...

my life now is not half bad...it's not even whole bad... it's just dull...

so I've realized...

It's much better to be stuck with something you risked for than be stuck because you chose to be stuck...