Gap toothed BEAUTY

I am gap toothed but it has never stopped me from thinking that I am beautiful. Yez, there are those moments of insecurities but being gap toothed made me more happy to show the world that even with this imperfection of having a gap between my front row teeth I must never stop smiling and letting the universe know that I am happy.

                Some are concern on how I would appear to the public eye. They are afraid that I would look like ugly little duckling /gap toothed dora the explorer minus the bangs…It disturbs me sometimes, I know they are just concern. There was a time that my face seemed to revolt against me, planting these red pimples on my cheeks and on my forehead, my hair is super dry and I have to wear glasses plus I can’t appreciate the beauty of my separated teeth. I swear I have never looked myself in the mirror for almost a month, even in wind shields, or anything that cast a reflection I dare not to even glance, because when I do, it seems I’m looking at an untamed geeky hopeless monster.

                …then I realized one day, this imperfections doesn’t really matter. There are those people that have acne all over there face and they are happy. There’s Vanessa Paradis that even with a gap tooth got the hottest, sexiest, quirkiest, talented man ever lived and that is ever dearest Johnny Depp. So, why am I sulking? Just because I don’t have a super model height? Just because I don’t have a flawless glowing skin? Just because I don’t have those fully formed nose? those perfect rosy cheeks, those luscious lips, and especially those perfectly aligned, sparkling white teeth?

My answer is the heck with the beauty standards of the world, I am BEAUTIFUL! 

                Beauty, we are all born with it, and it all starts from accepting who we are and what we are. We are created in God’s likeness. We are beautiful. I am beautiful and you are beautiful!

                As days passed by, my pimples have dried out, yes they have leaved scars but I don’t care.

             

   My vision get’s blurry everyday so I really need to wear glasses, I may look like a nerd but I don’t care.

                My nose, as they say looks just like a lump on my face, but I don’t care.

                I have cut short my hair and I don’t even know if it will fit me, well I don’t care.

                My teeth? They just keep on gapping but I don’t care. ^^, Braces are too expensive.

                My height, too bad it got tired growing only 4’9” tall at age 24, (sigh). It’s hereditary you know, I have nothing much to do about it, better leave it to acceptance. LOL 

                Pretty much the only important thing is hygiene…haha…and you are free to S-M-I-L-E !

                                                                                                            the_real BEAUTY

           

500 Days of Summer

Prelude: Well it started from (me) having a crush with Joseph Gordon-Levitt that I ended up watching 500 days with summer because everyone is recommending meto watch it if I want to see JGL so bad. So, with the help of a good friend (who downloaded it), I ended up watching the movie.

Well ofcourse the movie started with someone narrating and these flashes of videos of young Tom and young Summer, and da da da da da…you get the idea if you have seen the movie…just scan it out of your head…=)

My point is other than JGL is super cute and I just want to pinched him while bearing that very very notable smile…well I was having some reflections while watching the movie.

First: Tom and Summer is like the life size representation of myself. Summer as the blank, interesting, insensitive kinda girl which is me, and Tom is the i don’t know what to do kind of guy which is also me. It’s not that  Tom is the male version of me and Summer is the other way around. It’s like as if they are portraying a drama in which I can see how I will exactly act . 

More explanation…Summer is like the side of me that’s like… yeah you have seen Summer, that’s just like me, go with the flow, blank, intriguing, smile, laugh, doing unexpected things and all,< yeah I’m like that >and maybe I’m like her that I think, I don’t want someone to brand me as something as theirs.

Tom, is also like me, the don’t know what to do kinda guy, . The one that it seems like things are out of your league kinda type. The one that needs advice, the one that just stare, the one that cherish every moment when it comes, smiles in unexpected gestures, appreciate in small things that for some are big deals to be made. Tom is like me, and I think “Tom” will work for me. . . .

One thing also about Summer is that, she have walls…walls that can only break down by someone who she trust. Someone that she feel comfortable with and that opportunity is rarely given.

I enjoyed the movie, not because it was JGL and Zoe Deschanel, but because it was full of reality. It was not made by fictitious tailored love stories. It was full of sweetness, love, tragedies and sadness. The ups and downs of relationship and the following of life. 

I love how Tom, moved on after the pain when he saw the engagement ring on Summer’s  finger. He tarry, he tossed and turned, got lazy and then boom one day he woke up, he’s still living and got to live with life. He pursued Architecture ….he started anew, read books and started one by one applying for his chosen field…and maybe after a hard work, showered and looking sharp. Though you can see from his face that’s “What’s all these got to do when I don’t have Summer? I miss Summer.” Then one day on his favourite spot where he could view the entire city with all its majestic buildings a familiar voice called, “Hey Tom”.

It was Summer. There she was, sitting next to him, the girl he have longed for, and greeting  her “You’re married…” faking a good smile.

 Summer only looks at him with no qualm or anything and only answered what Tom cannot understand why she don’t want to be somebody’s girlfriend but now she’s somebody’s  wife. Summer just said “It’s just happen…I just woke up one day and I knew..”

“Knew what?”

“What I was never sure of with you.”

At that moment I just feel the pain Tom felt…really I do. It was true pain for Tom, the woman he have loved, he spent with sleepless night thinking over and over again about their pass and memories was there in front of him saying she wasn’t sure if she have loved him.

Summer laid her hand on Tom’s hand and baid goodbye.

Tom was left there sitting on the bench…and it was just surreal, a broken hearted man watching the city streets and buildings afar.

Ending is, even though Tom was left with a shattered belief on fate, destiny and childhood fairy tales… I still do believe it was meant for him to be scheduled on that interview, waiting there talking with his competiton and realized yes maybe he must have not been looking…and sure is 500 days of Summer is over but day 1 with Autum has already started and they are having coffee later.